Hiromi Usagi!

My Taiwan trip story is getting very long, so I will take a break now. I will write about it soon though. Well, I just went to see Star Wars with Harper and Matiss, and I am so tired, but I can’t fall asleep. My friend from Japan emailed me saying that the company she works for might be sold to a different company, and she was told that she won’t get any raise no matter what happens to the company or laid off. The circumstances are more complicated than what I wrote here, but she was very very shocked. She worked for the company for 15 years. 15 years! I didn’t know what to say. Life is tough sometimes. I think I am very sympathetic, so I feel anxious now and can’t sleep.

I don’t know anything about Star Wars, but I enjoyed it and started thinking how evil and good qualities co-exist as one unit. It is kind of ying yang, I thought. That is so Asian, and that’s okay, right?

Yesterday, I went to a facial with Becca at Aveda institute, which is ran by students, so it is cheaper. I paid $35 for Focus Facial + special eye treatment. It was about one hour and so relaxing. It makes me very happy when someone else is working hard on me like this and acupuncture. My skin looks great now. I bought some Aveda products too. I loved a hot stone massage which I got while I had a facial mask on. It was a nice treat. Sometimes, I need special treats.

I love taking care of my body inside and outside. I thought about why I am obsessed with my body stuff, especially inside/ health. Since I was a baby, I have tended to get sick easily. There are several emergency stories my parents told me that I was too young to remember. I wished I had been physically strong, but I learned to know how to take care of myself. I see some improvement. i.e. I haven’t been to emergency room for several years! I never skipped a class at Cornell and Art Institute. To me, that’s amazing. I almost couldn’t graduate from hight school because of my absences. I am getting better at preventing myself from being sick. I became very conscious about my body. Since I moved from Japan, I have been very conscious/ sensitive about myself. Perhaps, that was the main reason I was vegan for a couple of years. Now I eat fish, so I am not even vegetarian. I think that I went through the phases that I was becoming independent for real. Being far away from my country made me vulnearble, but it was a good thing, I believe. All of the good and bad things came out. This is one of my very precious experiences.

I think I can sleep now. Good night…