excited and sad at the same time
July 26, 2005
I ran into Mary at Sultan’s market today. It has been a while since I talked to her, so she didn’t know that I am leaving soon. She asked me if I was excited about going home, and I said yes and no. I get this question a lot. ‘ Yes,’ my family and friends are waiting for me, and Japan is my country where I don’t have to worry about visa or security or safety. But ‘No,’ I don’t want to leave here where all of my close friends live and there are more options and flexibility in society, and I really wanted to start the phD program.
It is a mixed feeling and confusion, but no regret what I have done so far.
I should not worried about this transition too much, but rather enjoy the rest of my time here.
My friends are worried about me by reading my blog, but I am doing fine. I went to yoga today and ate a yummy lunch and working on my theis (still?). I am happy…don’t worry….
