I had been so good with not having coffee for a while, but I started it again and cannot stop it. It started a few weeks ago right after my marriage paper document/ interview event. I was so tired and wanted to have a cup of coffee to make it though the hot and tiring day. I was like, “sure, just one cup a day is not a big deal” and had one. I felt great. Coffee does something different from other caffeinated drinks.
I drink grain coffee as a substitute and love it, but still want caffeine boost. I am drinking a cup of grain coffee now and thinking that I had a lot of caffeine today (soy latte and americano) I know that I didn’t have too much, but I have had coffee everyday since the day when I started it. I physically want it and feel great after a cup of coffee. I guess I feel guilty that I am putting caffeine into my cleansed body…hahaha…. I also feel so tired when I wake up in the morning.
I don’t do drugs, but I kind of understand what substitute addiction is like. I went to a coffee shops twice today with my co-workers. I had a good time with them, of course, and had a lot of caffeine.
I hope I can sleep well tonight. well, I am getting sleepy though…
